My French Ex-Gay and Me: The Movie.

"Ex-gays" love to give their testimony on how God delivered them from the excruciating pain and sheer horror of homosexuality. One caught my attention because he didn't seem to go through all the molesting and sexual exploitation most 'former' homosexuals go through that made them hate homosexuality. I wrote a comment on his first YouTube video that he responded back to and after a few more comments we decided he should write me privately.

It started with me linking him to my blog testimony (in the tags below) in response to what he said in his video and I went further with saying; "Please, look over my blog and I will be glad to answer any question or walk you through whatever you need help with."
He wrote me back:

"So I've been reading through your testimony and I have to say that I quite understand your point of you, but you also have to know that what led me to where I am today is not according to men but according to the direction God put me into from the beginning. I would like to tell you more about my testimony now though it is quite long (this is an understatement from him), I don't have any blog to redirect you to but if you're interested in reading my story I'm ready to write it down for you in an email. 

Let me know!" 

I responded:

"I would love to here what you have to say (big mistake)."

NEXT thing I get is paragraph after paragraph of what was him telling me all kinds of personal issues including spiritual visions people seem to have approached him with when he was young to not be gay, God telling him to leave his first boyfriend and the Holy Spirit telling him he'll get all kinds of spiritual gifts and Christmas presents if the boyfriend isn't in the picture anymore (the 3rd Person of the Trinity really had it in for this particular boyfriend). He finally ended up leaving the boyfriend because of all the Holy badgering and all of a sudden communication was cut off from God's end, the Holy Spirit never gave him his wonderful presents that were promised and he becomes so despondent, he quit school, moved back to his parents and contemplated suicide. He ends up in ANOTHER gay relationship that this time is abusive and all of a sudden God decides to pop into his life again like a deadbeat dad who's kid just turned 18 to tell him stop being gay, again. This time it sticks and God didn't drop him later.

It all sounded odd and almost like a late-nite Mexican soap opera you find on the Telemundo channel, but with God causing the melodrama. I wrote him back with trying to find a place to start with what he wrote:

"My first issue is with how you think the Holy Spirit made you promises if you obey Him in leaving your boyfriend. The Holy Spirit doesn't work that way in being conditional in what He offers. All we desire from the Holy Spirit is there for the asking of we are saved and if it's not imparted to us? God's Will trumps our desire in His perfect wisdom. I noticed you had people around you (the people in the church you grew up in, the girl who came to you with her dream, the mother... ) who put in you that the love you had was wrong early on. I think they had more of an impact on you than you know. You're life collapsed AFTER you left your first boyfriend at the 'prompting' of God that started your spiritual journey? Do you think maybe the choices you made were not from God and that is why your life fell apart and you felt God abandoned you? You get another boyfriend who's abusive and it was only then God came to you again? I see all kinds of wrong here already. I stopped reading your testimony at this point because I want you to understand something brother. God is not a roller coaster of feelings and prophetic dreams and audible visitations. This is why we go by his Word that gives us discernment with what is from God and what isn't. I believe what has happened to you is you really believing God has brought you to this point, but if homosexuality is not a sin (remember the verses I brought up in your YouTube comment and how I put then in their correct context?), God's Holy Spirit wouldn't have been doing what you believe Him to be doing. As a Pentecostal I know full well the dangers of going by spiritual manifestations that are the work of the mind and flesh. Now what I see here could also be a case of if you truly believe homosexuality is sin, even though the case can't be made from the Bible, maybe God did leave you in your will to leave homosexuality because it became a stumbling block to you, THAT I understand."

The next e-mail from him:

"(My name) you should expect have a debate with me on this only after reading the all story. Apparently you didn't understand that I've spend hours writing It just for you and this is really disrespectful. Or you're not interested in my story and you move on or you take the time to consider what I said because you can not expect me to listen to what you have to say if you didn't even try with me ... And it makes you write a lot of nonsense that I can't answer, because the answers are found in the rest of what you didn't take the time to consider (they weren't because after he wrote me this, I read everything he said)."

My response:

"There is no debate with you because I never wanted to debate you in how we came to be in our different paths. Is that how you saw all this? We all have a testimony who have sought God and many times those testimonies contradict each other, who is right? The testimony that is in line with the Word of God outside of experiences and emotion. You say I disrespected you with not reading your whole testimony and I understand your anger because you are right, but what I had to say about the first few paragraphs of what you wrote, you didn't even respond to so we could go on from there. 

What I wrote was not nonsense because you didn't understand it or wanted to accept it.

I'm sorry."

He never wrote again and is continuing to post his "ex-gay" videos.

Beth had a sneaking suspicion she was in black and white again

Three Pits In A Pod

I don't know what's happened to Billie Graham's children. I've written about Franklin's antics before and now his sister Anne is stepping up with her bid to out do her brother in fanaticism. Just recently from Anne.

To imply God decided to turn a blind eye to watch sparrows fall out of the sky while men and women were torn to pieces, burned alive or fell out of the sky to their deaths like sparrows themselves on 9/11, that God did a retroactive judgment on America because of transgenders peeing years later, Is disgusting and a reproach to the Name of God. It's disgusting coming from any human being and even more so coming from anyone in any type of ministry or even faith. Anne's brother, never the one to be left out with a 9/11 comparison, is just as loathsome with equating that day of 9/11 with the "moral terrorism" of homosexuality. Did I say Franklin just stated gays "snatch children away for themselves" in a Russian newspaper? Gays are now the child-snatcher monster "Qallupilluit" of Inuit Alaskan lore according to Franklin. Their father's body is in the ground and these two beans are doing everything they can to run his ministry into the ground with him. Franklin's daughter who doesn't fall far from the dump truck when it's on a rocky road, big surprise, is no different with saying trans kids are a "threat to little girls" in 2020. Someone put a collective cork in these people.

Qallupilluit
Homosexual coming for your child.

Fishes and Furs and Danny Trejo

 

A common challenge brought up by the anti-gay religious goes like this; "Show me a gay relationship in the Bible or anything that affirms it?" 

First, you are asking me to prove what isn't written, what you believe is proving your point in some way if I can't. I'll turn it around and say show me a clear chapter and verse stating; "Man and woman becoming one flesh AND ALL ELSE IS NOT ALLOWABLE." The burden of proof is on you with showing me they aren't allowed, with what isn't written, because YOU are the one saying these gay relationships are forbidden from the start. You'll then have to admit you're making the Genesis narrative that was only a narrative into a Biblical edict for every man and woman to follow, forever, and reading between the lines of Matthew 19 what isn't there with making up a Biblical prohibition out of a Biblical silence. The Bible is also silent on the early Bible patriarch practice of having concubines. what was the historical norm of having arranged marriages without love, masturbation, and heterosexual anal sex.

Second, In situations like these when there is Biblical silence on a topic, what is either permissible or what is not permissible to us with iffy borders, it should be decided by the test on if it breaks the Royal Law of love or if it harms, hurts or exploits. Fur wearing and fish hatcheries are two examples the Bible says nothing on, but is clear with what we are to decide on both. Fur wearing caters to one's vanity, it's also a status symbol of the rich that gives a bad message to unbelievers when Jesus was no fan of the rich, not to mention the horrific conditions these animals live in that makes us not good shepherds over these creatures. This is not permissible. Fish hatcheries give a chance for a fish population to grow from the greed of overharvesting, it's good for the environment, nothing is harmed or exploited, this is being a good shepherd over these creatures. This is permissible. Gay relationships hurts or harms no one with two people finding loving companionship. No one is exploited, forced, and the rule of Royal Law is kept. This is permissible. 

The Bible is clear that marriage was made for us, not us made for the "institution" of marriage. 

Franklin's Jaw-Dropping Disbelief

"Can you imagine a city where a popular, successful business is singled out (for a boycott?)..."

- Franklin Graham on New York Mayor Bill De Blasio's call for a boycott of the anti-LGBTQ Chick-Fil-A restaurant chain.



"Boycott Target department stores, Disney, Nike, Starbucks, World Vision charity, the Girl Scouts, the Boy Scouts, Wells Fargo bank... "

- Franklin Graham asking you to boycott these companies because they are pro-LGBTQ.



Trans Like Tang Because They Can

I could list off all the negative "Christian" happenings across the country right now against transsexuals with public restroom accommodations, but instead I'm going to use this opportunity to let some parents talk about having a transgender child and link to a Christian transsexual's blog that has a beautiful spirit.

But first a look at the cases of supposed "transgender predators" in public restrooms.




ts4jc


Transsexual (F to M) Balian Buschaum.

Street Cheese in Camden Town, England

"Old Mormon With Taco." $800

My Evil Aunty

When Nigeria isn't sending gay men to prison for years for being gay, they're making movies. And boy are they.

The "Nollywood" film industry there loves to make movies that fall in the category of what's called "Christian Horror." You'll only find this in Nigeria for some reason because I have yet to see a movie anywhere else where you'll watch a Gospel message and be scared to turn off the lights in the room at the same time. These movies are a hit on YouTube. 

They always have the same story-line of someone in the village using evil powers and they're usually witches because Nigeria seems to have a real problem with witches who steal husbands and cause abortions. These "witches" are either little kids or hot girls wandering around in a group planning evil. In one scene I could swear when a group of pretty witches were walking through the forest, one of the actresses playing a witch fell down a hill into bushes and filming didn't stop.

They also love characters of evil stepmothers who are trying to poison the family, ghost people who live in the forest who are up to no good, and Godly men who can make lightning bolts coming out of their Bible to defeat these Satanic beings. The movie thumbnails on YouTube always have bug-eyed women that would look racist if posted anywhere else. Actors stand around like they're ready for the rice to finish on the stove when they aren't talking during a scene. Nigeria could do with some acting coaches, but they're probably all in prison for being gay.

I know there's the heart behind these movies with a budget of 3 Sonoran hot dogs from a Mexican food cart, but I just can't get out of my head that these people would gladly chase me into to sea for being gay when they aren't in front of the cameras dealing with all the witches. 

I would put an image of a movie poster for one of these films here, but it would look racist. So instead, here's a street food tour from two sweet ladies who probably hate my guts for being a batty boy.

Christopher Yuan

The anti-gay crows just love to throw out talking heads of some type of "ex-gay" and make them the star of the hour (Rosaria Butterfield had that distinction and once her hour was up, they threw her away like some washed-up actress the movie studios stopped calling). Give it time, and they'll come up with a new child of the hour when the previous star starts losing their luster (as predicted, Chris was kicked off the movie credits for Becket Cook and now even Becket is seeing fewer and fewer calls from his agent for roles). Christopher Yuan is still chugging along as a talking head and lately, he's gotten a resurgence in popularity in my town of Los Angeles. Yuan was like a Chinese Tony Montana drug kingpin who rose up so high in the drug trade, he became a drug supplier who supplied other big drug dealers throughout the country and slept with any man who breathed his way along the way. After a prison sentence and an HIV diagnosis later, he found the Lord. Yuan cleaned up well, was taught well by the rabidly anti-gay Bible Moody Institute, and now goes around the country on speaking engagements with talking about the struggle he has with homosexuality. What he should be doing instead is making talks on how drug addiction in a hedonistic lifestyle is a pointless existence, THAT would serve a better purpose (especially with those he directly affected) than what he's trying to do here with homosexuality.

He says on his website he's a "survivor" and "AIDS activist." The only surviving he did was survive a prison stint for damaging countless lives as a drug pusher and him saying he's an 'AIDS activist' is just unbelievable when all he's doing is using his HIV status as a way in to say God wants you to not be in a gay loving relationship. A real HIV/AIDS activist brings awareness to the disease, Yuan brings awareness God has issues with you being gay while he has HIV, big difference. The fact he doesn't mind being used by the anti-gay religious who have no compassion for gays who have HIV/AIDS, the same people who believe that the disease is a "sow what you reap" because of being gay, shows how clueless he is with insulting the audience he's trying to reach.

Someone left a comment on Yuan's old blog years back and I print it here because it clinches it for me with which path is the right one:


Dear Christopher,

Gay or straight, we are all subject to the risks of pornography, drugs, and HIV.

Being gay or straight is not a choice, just like being black, white, or yellow. But choosing pornography is a choice. Choosing to take drugs is a choice. Choosing to be a drug dealer is a choice. Choosing casual sex, choosing not to talk about and not practice safe sex with your partner(s), choosing not to ask your partner(s) to get tested, those are choices. Please take responsibility for your own actions.

I am also Chinese. I knew I was gay when I was 13 year old. I was the in closet in High School and College, not having a single gay friend. When I saw my straight friends getting serious in their relationships getting married, I knew I wanted that too. I wanted to find the person I love, find the person that loves for who I am, find my soul mate. In coming out, I reached out for support from an Asian support group called GAPSN. My first meeting at GAPSN was "Coming Out" to parents. I came out to my parents after that meeting. My second meeting at GAPSN was "HIV and AIDS", I went to this meeting with my boy friend, and we learned to talk about this uncomfortable issue together.

That was 20 years ago. I am happy to say today I've been in a loving committed relationship with my soul mate for 13 years. My soul mate is also Christian. My brother, sister, and mother are also Christian. My father is Buddhist. My soul mate's family members are also Christians. Dreams do come true. I am getting married to my soul mate next weekend in CA. All of our families and friends have been very supportive and encouraging. 
My sister and mother went to your talk, and told me about you. I read the hand out that was passed out during your presentation. It was heart breaking to read that hand out called "Rebel w/o a cause", specifically the 2 page argument against "Same-sex marriage." Will you have happiness by taking away the wishes and dreams of millions of committed loving same-sex couples? We know many same-sex couples who've been together for decades, where their life's dream is to be married one day. The path you have taking in your efforts in denying so many committed couples their hopes, dreams, and happiness, will that bring you happiness?

You are gay Chinese. I am also gay Chinese. We have taking very different paths in coming to terms with who we are. "I shall not bear false witness." With courage and honesty comes love and honesty.

Being HIV+ does not mean you have to give up your hopes and dreams. I pray to God that one day, you will find your soul mate, that you will have happiness.

God Bless,
Douglas.

P.S.: I also do talks. I do talks for the younger generations of Asian gays, like older generation have done for me when I was a young adult. The talks I do are about love, commitment, responsibilities, marriage, honesty, and courage. I know that through my talks, gays will be less likely to choose the path you have chosen of unsafe sex, drugs, drug dealing, and HIV. Gay or straight, we all want love, commitment and marriage.





What REAL AIDS activists look like.